Thank You

I would like to take this time to thank all of you who have supported me by reading my blog and occasionally commenting on the posts.  I would also like to thank the majority of my coworkers who have been so sensitive (too sensitive in fact :) to the fact that I am fasting. I have friends who are going through major issues and transitions, and yet they find time to give me strength.  This entire blog has been a journey, but this month has been a concentrated one, and I am sure some of you may be growing tired of my introspection, but you support me anyway.  I am very blessed.  

In the grand scheme of things, the negatives in my life are out doing the positive at the moment, but I feel good knowing that I am improving, and friends are where they should be, where they need to be.  Those of you who know me must be rolling your eyes as I discuss my self-improvement plans,  but I am making genuine progress, and I admire your patience. I am halfway to my goal of reading the entire Koran meaningfully, and even the simplest feedback inspires me.  In many ways, I have opened up here, to you, as I have never done before.  I have learned I can trust people with this, as I have had little or no discouragement.  One day, I hope to be able to say the things I am writing now.

There is so much inside me that needs sorting out, and I am moving room to room as it were.  Some are dark and gloomy, others bright and airy.  I am banishing ghosts, and I am stripping away my own excuses, demarcating the baggage of my youth and the legacy of my own failings, my own sins.  I won't stop until I have laid everything bare, ready to rebuild on a solid foundation.  I am not solipsistic or self-absorbed - this is not an elaborate scheme for attention, sympathy, or respect.  I would write the same way if there were no readers, but the fact that there are motivates me.  I do love it when I get feedback from someone saying they can relate to some thing in one of my posts, it is a connection I am forging that has been long absent.  This experiment is not necessarily cathartic, but it is enlightening. 

Thank you once again, I will keep writing.