Tuesday, July 23, 2024

David

 I met David on a job interview of sorts in 1985. He scared me to death, and was most likely responsible for me getting the job. But first, a little context. 

It was the summer of 1985 and I had just arrived in Jamaica to serve as a Peace Corps Volunteer. During the two-month pre-service training, I was told that my assignment (teaching in a teacher's college) was no longer available and that they needed to find me a new placement. With  no success after a few weeks, they let me travel up to Montego Bay to search for something myself. Within a few days, I had found three opportunities: Teaching adults how to read at night, working at an SOS Children's Village every other weekend helping establish a Boy Scout Troup, and teaching all subjects to group of boys at the Fairmont Boys' Home three days a week. It was at my job interview at Fairmont that David and my paths first crossed.

Through my canvassing, I had learned of a small orphanage on the edge of town that needed a temporary teacher - the primary teacher was just about to go on maternity leave. Fairmont Boys' home was an old converted guest house overlooking the bay and airport (I chuckle to think that in this more modern society, the place would be worth millions and never ceded to a group of wayward boys). There was a primary building with a great room with three sides facing the bay. Joining the building for two stories were verandas that now connected rooms for the boys. It was a small but tidy place. I made my way upstairs to the headmaster's office where I met a very pleasant and capable man, Mr. Bromfield. We chatted for a bit and he let me know what he was looking for - someone to teach 17 boys, ages 7-17 in a one-room class, boys who were "too spirited to appreciate the benefits of a traditional education." It was in the midst of me trying to navigate the subtle admonition layered in the headmaster's stiff British English that we heard the scream.

Instinctively, I jumped up and headed down the second-floor deck to the end room that served as the classroom. Bolting inside, I saw the frightened teacher I would soon be replacing looking across the room. I followed her eyes to the other side of the room where I saw a young boy stabbing at an older and larger boy with a makeshift knife. I could see small blood stains on the older boy's shirt that were from a few shallow puncture wounds. I rushed towards them and tackled the older boy, putting myself between the two of them. Mr. Bromfield was right behind me and gently took care of the now sobbing smaller child. 

I got the job and started a month later. The two boys, Nigel and David, had become linked to me and Nigel would end up suffering from my attention. David was the older boy, 17 at that time. Nigel was probably 8 or 9 years old. I tried hard to help each child, they both needed such wildly different support and guidance. Nigel needed affection and attention and I still have no idea what David needed. When I did praise or reward Nigel, David would punish him later. This two-part act would escalate to the point where I was almost afraid to deal with Nigel. Everything I tried to teach, reach, support, cajole, or stifle David's anger and violence with failed. I was trying to create a solution to help both boys, and was only making things worse.

After nine months or so, I still had not given up on David, but everything came to a head one day and we ended up making a fragile truce that held for the next year-and-a-half. He had hit Nigel that day and I was far more stern in my rebuke than normal. I grabbed him by the arm and pulled him into a hallway. At that moment, he yelled "motherfucker" at me. I tightened my grip on his arm and told him that I had just learned my mother was dying of cancer and I wasn't going to allow him or any other man to insult her. For a short moment (and the only such moment I witnessed in two years), I saw a softness in David's eyes.  It wasn't there long and he dropped his head and mumbled some form of "ok." In that instant, for the first time, I wondered how David had become an "orphan," whether through death or abandonment. I wondered if he had ever been hugged. I told him I also cared about him as much as I did Nigel, but I couldn't allow him to continue to strike the smaller, helpless boy. Again, David muttered compliance. This moment did not bring us any closer, it only gave Nigel a reprieve from David's anger. 

I never saw a friendly smile from David, before or after our chat in that hallway. We didn't become closer, nor did we interact more than necessary. I did make sure I acknowledged him and didn't ignore him. A great weight had been lifted off my shoulders now that Nigel was safer. I never thought about thanking David for stopping what I thought he never should have done. I was wrong in that posture, dead wrong. I should have thanked him for doing something for me. I should have been grateful. 

I wasn't at Fairmont much my second year as the regular teacher returned from maternity leave. I ended up doing activities and physical education for the boys once or twice a week, activities that David was usually excluded from due to some recent transgression. I did stay close to Nigel who always greeted me with a loving and bashful smile. I would jostle him a bit and we would get to our activity for the day. I never hugged Nigel. I wish I had.

Over the intervening 30+ years, I thought about both boys often, hoping one found love and that the other remained alive. A few years ago, I googled David's name and by chance, happened upon a short, obscure notice in the Radio Jamaica News. David, who had been in and out of prison since leaving Fairmont, had been killed in a gunfight in Montego Bay. There was no obituary or any other notifications.

Epilogue

I have know of David's death for several years now. I never was able to track down Nigel and can only pray over him. Last night, I was re-reading Alan Paton's collection of short stories, Tales from a Trouble Land with a different lens. Alan Paton was a white South-African who wrote elegantly about the horrors of Apartheid and the lives it destroyed. Some know of his most famous book, Cry, the Beloved Country. I had forgotten, though, that Alan Paton had been a headmaster for many years at boy's reformatory school for indigenous children in Soweto. In some of his short stories, he recounts his successes and failures reaching those troubled boys. He wrote about their struggles far more eloquently than I do of David. But I sense a responsible form of humility in his writing that I do hope I share. I hope I did what I could for David and Nigel, and I hope that what I am concerned with about my experiences is more about them than some sort of pity I generate for my own failures.

Sunday, June 21, 2020

All Lives Don't Matter......


All lives don't matter to a great deal of those folks who claim they do. This pithy T-Shirt (above) ran out of room evidently. All lives clearly don't matter to the All Lives Matter crew. Not at all. Perhaps it is the word "lives" that stumps them. Lives as in life or death. Certainly not as in quality of life. Here they have made themselves very clear - people don't deserve the same quality of life, basic human rights, or privileges. So much so, that the very word "privilege" ignites them. They follow leaders who encouraged them to buy Krugerrands in the 80's at the height of apartheid; they elect politicians who would deny people simple, consistent rights in the workplace; they sue for the right to discriminate freely against the LGBTQ community or to control others reproductive rights; and they pine for the time (MAGA) when they didn't have to work so hard to hate.
You really have to do some soul-searching if you cannot disaggregate these issues. If someone challenges you with a proposition, you should entertain it, debate it, support it, and/or deny it. Once you have done that, move on to your issue. One of the most common logical fallacies is Ignoratio Elechi - whereby one provides a counter statement that does not prove the original statement false. Saying all lives matter does not refute the fact that black matters do - it is a slight of hand that diminishes the uniqueness of an individual or group in favor of a larger collective. Something a card-carrying Bolshevik would be proud of. The real malice of the retort, though, is the visceral pleasure one takes denying the original assertion without actually denying it. Like most cowardly tools, it slithers back into a coarse man's "plausible deniability." I mean it must really suck to be a racist and not be able to shout if from the rooftops (MAGA).
Imagine a mind that prioritizes guns, beer, that Confederate rag, and statues of treasonous villains over seemingly hundreds of core human values ostensibly available to them (e.g. love, charity, compassion, empathy, altruism, humanism (a word under-educated zealots confuse for hedonism), respect, tolerance, joy, justice, hope, service to others, courage, dignity, humility, sacrifice, honesty, loyalty, responsibility, etc.). Now they do dabble in perverted versions of these constructs from time to time, but you seldom see these decent human gestures on their signs or T-Shirts - or hear them from their contorted, malevolent lips. Instead they often embrace contrary explications that make them feel bold, strong, and perhaps, momentarily relevant.
So yeah, if you cannot say "Black lives matter", then you are lying when you say that all lives matter. It's kinda the hateful right's version of participation trophies.

A few words about the rebuttal, "Blue lives matter" - If blue lives matter more than black lives, get rid of that "protect and serve" nonsense.

Friday, June 12, 2020

A Bench For Betty

2020 has been a challenging year for all of us - and several folks in Learning Enrichment and College Readiness have experienced far more than their fair share of heart ache. A little over three weeks ago, Betty, one of our departmental secretaries, lost her son Frankie Jr. unexpectedly. The family's loss was unimaginable, and faculty and staff in our department were at a loss as how to console or support Betty's family. Our physical separation heightened our sense of helplessness, as so many families have experienced these past several months. We decided, as a department, that we would like to give Betty and her family something as a tribute to her son that was also related to her love of gardening. Larry, a good friend in shipping and receiving, had already made Betty two beautiful bird houses. We decided to make Betty a garden bench and planter. Carmela found a few examples online and she, Hortencia, and Meg settled on the one we ended up building. More than 40 people in the department contributed towards the construction of the bench. For me, this was especially amazing as these folks are always helping each other and they contribute to our philanthropic projects in Jordan and the Democratic Republic of the Congo.
We chose cedar posts for the planter/bench, as they are weather and rot resistant. Patrick and I spent nine hours building it at Hazem's shop. It was a lot of work and Patrick was a trooper - the sanding alone was a major undertaking. When we finished, Nina got us a beautiful plaque to put on the bench, and Carmela ordered a stone with a touching quote. We wanted to surprise Betty, so we had our best undercover operatives, Hortencia and Meg on the case. Carmela and John H. worked with staff and faculty, and Hortencia coordinated with Betty's husband, Frank Sr. Finally, Meg arranged to go over to Betty's for lunch on the Friday afternoon that we all decided to deliver the bench. Meg kept Betty busy in the back yard while nearly 20 of us showed up for the presentation.
This was truly a team effort. Many folks contributed, some lent tools, Kipp bought potting soil, and Yoanda, Chris, and Barb bought flowers for the planter. Hazem and Kennedy helped load the 400+ pound bench in the truck, and Frank, Kipp, Jeff, and Patrick helped unload it. It was a wonderful culmination of a lot of love from a lot of people.
After we had all assembled at Betty's house, Meg brought her out to the front yard. To say Betty was overwhelmed would be an understatement! I won't detail the next ten minutes because I am not articulate enough to capture the emotions and good will that followed. After Betty composed herself, we all adjourned to her back yard for lemonade and some catching up. After 45 minutes or so, we  dispersed saddened but also feeling blessed that we could participate in a small gesture that would help ease a little pain, even if just temporarily. Here are a few pictures:



17 4x4 cedar posts


We used 4 inch screws and dowel rods to connect the posts


And a whole lot of exterior grade glue


Patrick faded for a bit, but came back strong


90% done at this stage - getting it up on these tables was a feat


It's new home - at least until Betty decides where she would like it to be












Larry gave the center birdhouse to Betty and made her a second one. He gave us the other two for our fundraising for Zena and Jaina's tuition in Jordan



Betty and Frank Sr.


The three amigas - Betty, Carmela, and Hortencia


Enjoying a beautiful afternoon in the back yard


Pre-departure 


The crew: John H., Patrick, Hortencia, Christian, Meg, Carmela, Yolanda, Jeff, Nina, Kipp, (Betty and Frank Sr.) Lauren, Rita, Aaron, Mandy, Jenny, and David


As sad as these types of circumstances can be, I am so proud I work with a wonderful group of people who care about each other deeply, not only in times of great sorrow, but throughout the year. 

Our hearts go out to Chris R's and Jason K's families as well. 



Monday, July 15, 2019

Back Home

The two weeks flew by! Jeff and Carmela took a southern trip and I stayed behind to finish the English sessions and to visit the Jordan University of Science and Technology (J.U.S.T.). It was a busy last few days - Nina's sister, Samia, and some of her family stopped by to say hello, and I met Bader, one of Zain's brothers who will come to school in Chicago soon. We had a wonderful dinner at the Sweet Corner with Alaa, Captain Duaa, Lama, Rawan, Jocelyn, and Suad. It was a nice, low-key way to say goodbye. I will end here with pictures and a few captions, but I will have a longer post soon summarizing the trip :)


A princess showed up to bid us farewell


Almasa and Lean giving us some lovely presents :)





I left my military watch with Captain Duaa so she keeps a firm hand on the troops in my absence



The fist bump was the obligatory greeting and goodbye


Nina's sister Samia and family



Rana, Lana's sister escorted me out to J.U.S.T. for a wonderful visit


Mudheera Sughera 2


Fufu, Drs. Bataineh and Alzoubi at the International Relations Office


Selfi!


A big, sprawling, beautiful campus


Having tea with Bader



Back at the sweet corner with the gang


Our 5:30am taxi ditched us. A kind man brought Carmela a chair as we awaited rescue.


Our rescue vehicle was quite a bit smaller than we hoped, but we manged :)


Wednesday, July 10, 2019

Dragging a Bit

Today was a good day, but I think we were all dragging - at least those of us not journeying off to one of the new wonders of the ancient world.............
Carmela and Jeff are off to Petra, Wadi Rum, and Aqabah for a whirlwind trip. After yesterday's emotional goodbyes for them and our wonderful, late dinner, I think the staff and I were a bit worn out. It was still a great day though. The kids were treated to an elaborate breakfast, I worked on basketball with the older kids, and Dr. Rifai from Yarmouk University stopped by for a nice visit. He is the father of one of our former student assistants, Zain, who is now off to be a dentist at UIC. As I am roommateless tonight, I think I am going back for some Yemeni foule :) After a nap mumkin



He put a move on me




Not in my house


Lilas going for the dunk. Captain Duaa and Anwar are great coaches





Yum




*Postscript
I meandered down to the Yemeni restaurant and had a wonderful meal. While there, I bumped into Zain, a young man who works in a shop we frequent :)